Tarot: It’s Not As Crazy As You Think

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The Wild Unknown Tarot deck, available from The Wild Unknown and Free People

A lot of people are really into tarot. Most people scoff at it as just another hokey bit of mystical mumbo-jumbo. I’m one of those people who’s really into tarot.

Please don’t leave. I’m not a crazy lady. Hear me out.

I can be pretty cynical about this kind of stuff too. I’m very grounded in things I can physically experience. I love spirituality, but sometimes I have a difficult time connecting to the intangible stuff. For me, tarot is a way to connect to the part of myself I sometimes have a hard time reaching.

I use tarot as a kind of meditation. When I’m trying to figure out what direction to take my career or how to approach family issues, or when I just need affirmation that eating a pint of gelato in one sitting does not make me a bad person, I turn to my tarot cards.

The cards are purposely a bit vague so that they can apply to anyone. I see that as a positive thing. I don’t expect the cards to tell me the future or anything like that. I use them to organize my thoughts. Often I have so much going on in my head that I’m not sure which direction to go. Tarot helps me turn the craziness inside my head into a cohesive thought process. The cards tell me things I already knew but hadn’t been able to decipher properly (like the fact that I probably should not be eating a whole pint of gelato in one sitting).

Different people get different things from the cards. Some people are not very open to them, which is fine. Those who are open to guidance from the cards don’t find out who they’re going to marry or when they’re going to die. They simply find out how to organize their thoughts enough to start out on a more decisive path.

I don’t know if I believe in crystal balls or spirits or spells, but I do believe in guided meditation. Some people meditate during yoga. Others surround themselves with nature. I read tarot cards.

If you want to give tarot a chance, find a reader near you or ask me questions about tarot in the comments. It can seem silly at first, but the more you meditate with tarot, the better you’ll be able to decipher your thoughts. I can’t, however, make any promises regarding gelato intake.


Change Is Gonna Come

2013-07-13 16.34.22Today a woman stopped me on the street. I noticed her looking at me, as if to get my attention, and when I made eye contact she stopped and spoke to me.

“I don’t mean to bother you,” she said, “but I’m a psychic and you have a very strong aura. I see a career change coming for you. You’ve been very confused lately, but things will work out. You’ll end up where you’re meant to be.”

And then she walked away.

A lot of people would scoff at this woman, but I’ve always been fascinated with the supernatural, be it psychics, tarot, spirits, magic, or  what have you. I think there’s a lot in the universe that we don’t understand. There’s also the fact that this woman hit the nail pretty hard on the head.

I’ve spent the summer in New York City interning for an entertainment magazine, and while it’s been a great experience, it’s also made me wonder if this is what I really want to do and where I want to be. For the longest time I thought I wanted to move here, but I realized I don’t want that at all. It’s been a struggle because, if I realized that I actually don’t want something I’ve wanted my whole life, what else don’t I know about myself?

My time at this internship is almost over, and after this I have one more year of school. In that year I need to figure some things out. I’m still not even sure what all those things are yet. I am sure, however, that I need to look at myself a little closer. I thought I knew what I wanted, but now that’s been turned on it’s head a bit. I need to figure out what I actually want, not what I thought I was supposed to want.

Maybe this woman really was a psychic. Maybe I just looked a little lost. Regardless, the things she said to me were things I’ve been saying to myself for a while now. Change is coming, like she said. I’m not exactly sure what that change will lead to, but it is going to happen. I just need to take a step back and figure things out a little bit first. I’m excited though. I’ve felt for a while now that I wasn’t quite where I wanted to be. Maybe now I’ll be able to get myself there.